&- 10:37 pm
i think i'm experiencing rapture withdrawal symptoms. not a minute goes by when i don't have either one of the songs stuck in my head, or the steps of the dances going through my mind. its really sad to think that i'll never be able to dance with that same group of wonderfully talented people again.
i know i've been going on about how i was waiting for it to end. but of course i never really meant it. now i'm almost depressed about it being over. rapture went pretty well, i'd say, so we should be happy. but au contraire, it marked the end of our life in sajc dance and that really is the saddest part and what caused us all to burst into tears at the end of the show. yes, even me..the most emotionless pig in the whole wide world, cried after it was over.
i was reading amanda's blog and i realised how much we've gone through these past 1 and a half years. people think dancers have an easy job but i beg to differ. it is HARD TORTUROUS WORK! sure we don't do PT like the sports ccas, but compare that to our 15 hours of practises a week.. its just as tough!
call me lazy,but i decided to quote manda's blog to describe what this past year has been like. yeah, not all apply to me but still. the general idea is there...
"i keep on thinking back on all gruelling rehearsals, the crazy quick changes, the late nights that we had staying back to do costumes and whatnot, the trips to costume shops, the long bus rides to RP and wherever else we performed, the horrible 'hiphop' music for WAD, collecting our i love our juniors shirt in the rain with keish, the NO EATING IN THE STUDIO, the milis stampede, the mouldy and rotted cupboards in the studio, the planning of CIP and how badly it rained, apeewees, the cca signup, sentio, danceworks practices in which we almost died, the emo shit, shantishanti, the dinners at crystal jade, the discovery of pasarmalams and jurong point, tamas (mine's cute now), tauhuey, tangyuan, chinatown with lyn, toma and cindy's psychotic backcombed hair, transformers, true friend, beef noodles, footlong subways, dancing in crazyhighheelboots, zouk, partying, running up mediacorp stairs, strutting our stuff on the 'runway', NO ONE UGLY ALLOWED and everyone would point to lyn, zamzam, charshaoshaoroufan, instant noodles, elephant, cindy's rolls, horrible GO dancing, people asking us to turn the music down when its their fault for not giving us a tiny studio, impossible lifts, esplanade's amazingness, the GOLD that was worth more than any kinda honors, UCC rehearsals and so much more. now that all that's over, i wouldn't hesitate if i were given a choice to do it all over again, cos i love SA dance that much! but for now, i'm just thankful that i was part of all that, and thank God for all the friendships forged, hopefully for life (: "
i realise now that dance really was the deciding factor for my coming to SA in the first place. and its definitely worth it. i can't imagine myself in any other school. even though i had the chance to go to VJ or AC or something, (both of whom got honours for syf btw) i'm glad i didn't. not that anything's wrong with them, i'm just so thankful i've made so many friends in sa, particularly the dancers.
I LOVE YOU SAJC DANCE SOCIETY!
thanks again to all those who came down for rapture 07. hope you enjoyed the show. OH! i saw the video of my dance and it actually looked quite neat! so i'm happy. of course i'm still pissed at the audience members who decided to STROLL back to their seats and in doing so blocked MY DANCERS! but oh well. what's done is done.
I,alone
&- 11:32 pm
so mambo night on wednesday was really fun. went with manda,lyn, mok and jesse. but bloooooody packed though. people weren't dancing. they were busy pushing each other out of the way to either create space for them to ATTEMPT to dance, or to move across the dance floor. amanda chee kept screaming in my ear complaining about how people were pushing her when really, ALL Of us were going through the same problem. for heaven's sake i got elbowed like 5 times by this STUPID girl who was dancing behind me. urgh. but that was in phuture. went to the main dancefloor in zouk after that.i swear the hand actions they come up with ah..but it was fun trying to copy those dudes.oh yeah, and my shoe was KILLING me so i ended up dancing barefoot. how fun.
OH MY GOSH! we saw 2 guys making out. HAHA! how cool. anyway, left zouk at 4, got home at 4.30. slept at 5 cuz mok kept talkin to me even though i had to wake up at 9 plus!had to go to school for dance the next day!
2 weeks to rapture. INTENSE INTENSE training tomorrow. so yeah. speaking of which, why the hell am i blogging now when i should be sleeping? i'm in such severe need of the sleep i've been deprived of these past few weeks!
I,alone
&- 12:00 pm
Javier Sanz Luis Garcia
I AM SO SAD!!!!!
luis garcia's leaving liverpoool!! AHHHHH!!!!! i was SUPER happy when i found out torres will most probably be joining the reds (which girl wouldn't be? heh.ok guys too cuz that guy is GOOD) but after i found out about garcia i was depressed!!! okok. i admit. he's not say one of liverpool's greatest players..and so we can KINDA afford to lose him but STILL! it was nice watching him... when he wasn't losing the ball.and who was the one who scored that controversial goal against chelsea for the champions league semis which we eventually became champions of?? so jesse quek, STOP laughing and celebrating his leaving liverpool. let's see how YOU react if kuyt leaves. hmph.but nevertheless, i'm quite looking forward to watching torres play for the reds...if he does (and he better!) transfer.guess i'll have to start watching atletico madrid's matches if i wanna watch my number 10 play.
anyway, math today was.......okay. i think. don't quite care. think i can pass so that's all that matters to me. ONLY LIT TO GO! i'm sick of reading '1984' and 'Brave New World' again and again. Our question tomorrow is comparative, which means we gotta compare the 2 novels, so good luck to us. and we have an unseen passage as well. 2 essays in 2 hours. seems quite possible to complete but i beg to differ.
gonna watch 'transformers' tomorrow with mok and manda after the paper.and possibly mambo night later on. don't care. i'm gonna have as much fun as i possibly can this week. its the only time i'll have to do so these next 5 months.
I,alone
&- 9:44 pm
ANYONE WANNA GO FOR THE PLAY 'KING LEAR'???????
please please please tell me if you want to. only 1 ticket i'm afraid. but it's starring 'Ian Mckellen' aka Gandalf from LOTR! so yeah. Puh-lease tell me if you wanna go. it's on 19th July, Thursday, at 8pm.
I,alone
&- 4:39 pm
one week of blocks over. only got math and lit left.what the heck.i'm already acting like exams are all over. went out after my paper on friday and only came back at 1.30 in the morning! and woke up with a terrible headache the next day. you can guess why.
dance starting again this week.we have 2 weeks to pull everything together. AHH!
oh yeah.for those who still want tickets for Rapture, do let me know. We only have tickets left for the matinee show. So that's Saturday 21 July, 2pm at Mediacorp studios. $16 per ticket.
so yeah.that's it for the BT2 phase..next up, prelims! don't i just make life so enjoyable for myself.
I,alone
&- 4:31 pm
it's just one of those days when you don't wanna wake up
everything's FUCKED, everybody sucks.
I,alone
